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Now that I have chosen to walk this path.. I started to see something interesting that causes me to start thinking….

There are many important things I hold onto me that I dont really want to let go. now… one of these thing has falllen off…

and truthfully speaking, I dont think it could ever be gotten back with my own strength…

As I think, the only way for me to get it back is to wait for the right time…

It seems like God want me to go back to church.

I just read someone’s blog. I’m feeling happy that everything is as I predicted to be, the group will continue to be strong and the petty few will be neglected.

But i ask myself..

“are we really failing God?”

and I felt that I dont think so actually…

everyone has the same goal in mind.

Everyone come to gather for just one purpose…

But because of this one purpose, we had to build other factors…

and these factors are not doing great…

Does it mean that because of this factor, we are failing God?

I seriously dont think so.

How do we get our purpose without building a good factor?

And only to start doing things and start being concern when something finally happened and exploded?

What does this mean?

“Oh it’s the person fault… the person should not have left. the person should at least tell us.”

Qns is… did the person really not tell anyone?

So you telling me

“oh it’s their fault, we are cool, OK! We tried our best to bring them back… ahh well.. God ah I give to you ler, those lost sheep, bring them back k?”

How about thinking it this way…

“Why am I not sensitive enough to feel that the person needed great help and I should be there for the person when the person is currently going through such crisis??”

Instead of blaming the person for not coming back despite how hard working and how concern you are? Saying that..

“wah liew eh that person.. backslide liaoz…”

“Kns~! why must the person Fail God sia.. God so good to the person!”

hahaha

really man…

I’m so laughing at all these comments that I’ve seen.

OPEN YOUR EYES people!!!!

This is a lesson you have to learn from!!!!

And in the future… BE MORE SENSITIVE~!~!

Not wait until the nuclear bomb explode liaoz then try to salvage what’s left of it…

Instead, prevent the nuclear bomb from launching when it’s still in the silo.

This is the true reason why many people left.

have you already realize this?

WRONG!!.. the point here is not have you already realize this…

the point here is… have you learnt from it?!!

I’m so sick of seeing everyone starting giving those comments just because you guys finally saw something happen to them!!! When nothing happen, you guys live in your own fantasy world… SHEESH!

Oh sorry did I just offended you?

gomen (Sorry) gomen (Sorry)~! this is REALITY DUDE~!!

My Good friend once post me this question that got me thinking…

God is always with men…

Agreed.

Men is with God…

Agreed.

But is men with Hope and

is God with Hope?

That started me to think….

I’ve been involved in a few ministry…

Oh i’m so sorry, I cant say it’s a ministry…

But i’ve been “volunteering” to do some multimedia stuff.. so that makes me being in a ministry isn’t it?

I thought..

“oh.. this kind of thing only happen in CG level…I should be able to learn more from a ministry level”

So I was expecting more spiritual maturity in ministry…

But Lo and Behold!!!

The same thing happened even in mInistry!!~! I was suddenly being abandoned and suddenly “KICK OUT” for not knowing why even though I did a great job..

And when there is no one to turn to, they started turning back to me…

Not even a word of Thanks or apologize for forgetting about me in the past?

I’m know i’m suppose to do it For God and should not be complaining..( and I didn’t! Or else I wouldn’t stay redo the whole video at 12 AM just because you girls didn’t like it!)

But as I think again..

Isn’t it HUMAN BASIC COURTESY to at least inform you of your status?

As I think.. I realize the problem seems to lies in CHURCH level…

Of course there are many other things that happened. And It also seems to be a church level problem…

Now… you tell me.. with a church level problem.. How am I suppose to bring myself back to Hope?

I’ve seen so much that I’m so disgusted about it..

If I saw problem in a Pastor…

and if the Pastor didn’t realize it’s a problem…when It’s so OBVIOUSLY a problem…

Does it permit me to think that why am I learning from this pastor?

“Because he or she is from God?”

or

“is God really with him or her?”

I know a Christian definitely need a church….

I’m not saying I dont need one..

But the question is…

Does changing church helps in this?

- The Voice of Despair within the partial darkness showered with a glimpse of light.