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april fool’s fools starting… from 1/4/08 12:25 AM

Do anyone even care?

Apparently, HE didn’t read the previous post. nvm. it’s OK. It’s probably God’s instruction.

So anyway, yesterday is the day that everyone’s been looking forward to! The ESS Service and everyone’s talking about it!

everyone?

except me haha.

Since it’s been so long since I skip service. I shall not hide it from everyone what did I do yesterday.

At 3:30, I left my house to meet her at Plaza Singapura. Unlike me, she has already fulfil her criteria of a Saturday by attending a service. Except that she went for the secondary school one

Then we started recruiting officers to join our mission. That’s where we called him and not long after he accepted his mission, we proceed to recruiting her. After deliberate consideration of how risky this life activity mission is. She has finally took up the courage and accepted the mission.

basically.. what i’m trying to say is.. she has decided not to stay at home due to laziness and come out with us

And that’s how.. the four of us came together

Then it’s time to decide on a movie. Without further elaboration on my part on why we chose this movie, WE CHOSE “Rule #1″

So she and I went to buy ticket… very funny.. my pocket only got $6… She got $30. Then later we dig dig dig managed to gather enough money to pay for 4 tickets LoL

So after we bought the ticket, we went to eat. What time is the movie? 7:10

familiar time?

YEP!! It’s SERVICE TIME!

While we are deciding where to go to wait for our force to arrived,  Headquater has actually bring us reinforcement which is officer Lee and Sergeant Tan.

Later found out they are just passing by.

But we acknowledge that fact of a coincidental meet up is bound to be a destiny arrival. Thus we decided to fulfil our destiny and proceed with our quest to KOPITIAM and spent quality time with each other while Officer Lee and I went to replenish our physical thirst of solid fill up. (basically means.. we ate food..)

After we consume all our mana. Cadet Lim finally joined us. Sergeant Tan and Cadet Lim watched MUSE on Sergeant Tan brand new Laptop with a capital A (APPLE) a.k.a MAC

Officer Tan finally got out of her barracks and joined us in the field of war in a Massive Recirculation Transistor (a.k.a MRT)

Having full force, it’s time to bid farewell to Sergeant Tan and Officer Lee. With that, it’s time to rock and roll!

we went up to GV and buy food then we go into the cinema and watch movie -_-”

show ended.

Conclusion… dissappointment… stunt.. surprised… boring…

ok.. then she started to feel herself needing some refreshment after the full bafflement. So it is, we retreat to KOPITIAM and she prioritised her hunger by going ahead of us to get some restocking first. (actually is because none of us want to eat…)

Then… phone rang..

Reinforcement has arrived.

Inspector Yeo joined us at the knights of the round table and lay down our floor plan on where to invade next.

Inspector Yeo went to observe a certain feasible location and brought back some souvenirs with her.  Officer Tan and Cadet Lim along with me decided to invade location territory too. Thus we went and brought back some momentos with us too.

(basically… Inspector Yeo went to buy food.. and when she come back… Officer Tan, Cadet Lim and I started to feel abit hungry looking at her food… so we went to buy too and in the end we ate.)

the discussion was massive, participation level was at it’s highest peak (RED ALERT).

The level of seriousness is down to zero.

This is where the Jokes of “Abandant” and “Species” started popping up here and there…

it was unbelievable, the invasion took less then 1 minutes to annihilate the entire force, causing everyone to produce a high range of frequency squeaks and goes on in an interval of 1.5 milliseconds. (means… laughter…)

So the aftermath came…

we went to arcade to play silent hill.. very weird lor.. got one girl we dont know who lai de actually lift up the curtains and watch us play lol

Everyone had a try… then… exhaustness busted into our body… and everyone surrender and went home…

Yep Folks This is my Saturday spent.

- Senior Officer Tan Signing Out OVER!

I do not know how to say this. Nor do I want to say this. you would hate me for life, you would leave church, you would cry all you want.. but do read till the end EVEN IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO READ.
here goes…

Definitely it’s going to be tough trying to open a way through. Communication goes both ways and so far there hasn’t been much success in this world of MAKING YOURSELF clear if communication only goes one way.

probably the biggest mistake I ever made,

It started with a pure heart… really want to help… yet because i’m no longer there and EVEN IF I WANT TO BE THERE, that I feel that I had to at least help someone on doing it.

If you cant take it… at least let me know instead of keeping it in your heart…

HOLD YOUR HORSES if you want to start retaliating with your reasonings.

All words.. Yes I am at this point… Why? That’s the best I could do! What else could I do? You telll me? During the times when I’m still there, am I just words? ask yourself that… say yes, and you shall say it in front of Jesus Christ.

The reason why do I say so much?

It’s to help you to be aware of the environment more, Yes i know.. you are THINKING “oh I already know that”  But HELLO!!! Am I suppose to be a mind reader? If you dont speak up, how am I suppose to know what you know and you dont know? Even in school, dont you need to do FMT? First Meeting Template? What you know, what you dont know what you want to find out?

What happen to all your holistic education?

then it comes to this lovely “M”

I admit, and repented, PRIDE did take over me… and it was thanks to your lovely non-SACARSTIC attitude that I’ve started evaluating on myself the next day…

before I go any further, I shall take this opportunity to Apologize to you for me being prideful

I AM SORRY FOR BEING PRIDEFUL ON THAT DAY

back to topic…

I realize my mistake… I pray to God the whole day asking for his forgiveness. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT?

Dear brother of mine, what did you do? Did you confront me and tell me Im at fault? Yes? Yes? Yes?

INSTEAD!!! What did you do? You tell me? Or you want me to tell you? What you do… Is that even biblical?
Before we can start accusing people of being unholy, LOOK AT THE MIRROR FIRST

DUDE!! We are all sinners! Sinners will always sins! But what’s the different between us? We are willing to change IF WE REALIZE IT AND REPENT FOR IT!

What gives you the right to condemn me and not show me my fault?

Even worst, you CONDEMN ME totally and dont even allow any angels to speak to you…Instead your raise your bull and whack anything your raging eyes chance upon.

I’ll use back YOUR SENTENCE RIGHT BACK AT YOU

im utterly disappointed.
maybe jeff’s rite somehow
people here do disappoint.
not just leaders but also the members..

So many things you keep in your mind.. then rage it out on your blog.. Have you ever thought if all these issues is being spoken out, let’s say we REALLY are not sensitive towards you…  we could at least understand and go slow?
I chose to write this post is not to condemn you but to rebuke you… Whether do you EVEN REALIZE it’s your fault in some areas is up to you…

YOu wont see me in hope any time soon anyway.

This shall be my farewell present for you.

GOod bye.

Yep… that pretty much settle it

I’ve been there, done that.

I shall mum the rest.

Thanks to you, your encourage has really rebuked me I’m appreciative of that…

Enjoyed yesterday conversation. Shall treasure it!

will always remember RP…

Good Bye…

Take care!

- time is running out… 

very… no idea…

miserable for the first time…

should I?

I sense that the one i trusted is beginning to feel irritated…by me…

even though i have no bad intention…

To make everyone happy…

that’s my dream…

Is this even possible?

did I really overestimated myself?

JASON~! WAKE UP!!! YOU ARE NOT GOD!!!

YOU CANT DO EVERYTHING!!! JUST LET GO!!!

… Can I let go? Knowing that I could make a difference?

YOU CAN MAKE IT NOW.. BUT THE FUTURE?

am I really limiting their growth?

Funny organization with funny planners…

to plan a transfer at such quirky time which doesn’t even fit head or tails…

I’ve been unwilling… but i have no choice…

really?

Sorry is all I can say… I dont know what can I do anymore…

I dont want to disappoint you all…

But I cant find a win win solution anymore…

maybe.. i should just run away… 

one of you… in critical danger…

like a sheep about to get lost for the very first time in RP if the shepherd do not keep watch for it..

I know something has to be done… but I also know.. it must start from THERE.

another one of you… why do you feel out of place? 

that’s simple… would you see a stranger and say “Hello how are you? It’s been so great knowing you!”

same thing~! it takes time to create a bond… it doesn’t happen in just a day…

how much disappointment will THIS create… I cant imagine…

What is the worst scenario? It’s all in my mind? For only the old one? NAAH!! Even the new one!

YOU BET!

At this point of my life… what should I be doing?

—— Evaluating…

ok emo finish…

my dream is to form a band that could play as one and next time go to public and perform

will it become was?

Only God Knows…

so many things I want to blog about… But I guess today is not the right time for it… tomorrow bah…

Sorry for the emo post. I have my emo moments too… Jason is also human

I’ll pray that God will speak to me in this manner..

Very funny.. I suddenly have a urge to ignore the consequences and just help all the way…

and for a few moments… I find that quite feasible and fitting to do…

maybe I would…

maybe I wont…

Good Night

- I ain’t gonna do what I don’t want to…
- I’m gonna live my life!!