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haha this is so sudden -_-. Yesterday still so holy, today rebel liaoz lol

I guess this is human for you.

Now that i look back at my own action. Seriously I dont really know why did I do it.

Let me explain what happen to those blur king and queen readers.

Actually.. my plan for today is quite funny one. Yesterday night.. after considering for a very very long time.

I’ve decided to cancel jamming session. because

Kelyn is sick

and Jason need to attend caroling meeting

Oh.. to be more exact JasonS need to attend caroling meeting.

or maybe it’s Jason?

haha. well..  this is one thing about me that I think the problem was amplified today and I did something I didn’t imagine myself to do it.

I dont like to appear in places where I’m not invited.

I just feel more like an outsider rather then an insider.

Today got a meeting for caroling. No one informed me. So naturally, I would think I’m not needed anymore…

In the end, it was Cherine and Jason who persuaded me to go. I was still very reluctant.. because the main person did not sms me to tell me

Then I thought.. Maybe after meeting with Jason to talk to Chun Kwee and friends then after that we can go for lunch together and go caroling meeting.

So yeah.. a wonderful plan indeed.

Morning woke up.

saw Jason Msg.

[Summarise]: ” sorry slept late. cannot make it. nvm we can meet later in the evening, then go watch show. go Joycelyn house eat blah blah”

haha first thing in my mind. Doesn’t sounds like his plan.. more like.. TWAM plans -_-

so i nvm.. settle that later.. need to settle lunch first.. very hungry..

So as I think think think.. I’ve finally thought of a good combo.

Eat at a coffee shop beside MRT Station. then take train all the way to Sembawang.

ai sei. Good plan. So 1 PM I get ready to leave house.

mama came back

“Oie~! havent eat ah! Come let’s go eat together now!”

I remember my sis told me yesterday I havent been eating oftenw ith my parents because of all these outings. so I decided.. Ok lor good to eat with them too.

who knows.. when you got accompany, your pace would be slower.. by the time I know it. 1:30 liaoz..

I jia lat..

Normally. my instinct would tell me…  TAKE CAB LIAOZ LAH~! HALF AN HOUR AH!~!

but…

the recent increase in cab fare had me considered twice PLUS

I dont know why.. my impression was so bad that.. I was thinking.. nvm.. late late lah.. dont care ler..

So it is.. I take a train.. all the way to Raffles place…

out the door into another train. and all the way Sembawang I go.

wow.. It rythms..

anyway.. Jason say he will come down fetch me.. later I realize he has been waiting for me at his house.. He said..

“so we can go over together”..

Truthfully speaking.. I’m quite touched by that small gesture.. But I also dont know why leh… lol I’m beginning to appreciate this brother more.

anyway.. so finally we’ve reached the carolling place.. summarise… very fun. Nice. Moving groovy~!. Ok Done.

Then at 4:45 we took a train to Doby Ghaut to meet Michael, Chun Kwee and Heng Yu. Thomas followed us too.

we went to trumpet of praise to buy a bible for chun kwee and I ordered Left Behind Series 1 and 3

some people would ask. Har? “I thought you buy before liaoz?”

then I will say. YES I did!

But guess what.. I made the biggest mistake in my life and now it’s going to cost me $50 for this mistake.

I lend the MAIN disc to my friends out of friendliness..

and for their gratitude to ME.. they’ve kept the disc to themself probably collecting dust under some drawer in their room now.

The best part is.. I’ve lend until I dont remember who did I borrow it too..

This time I’ve learnt a lesson I will NOT lend the main disc to others anymore…

But Kind Jason will allways be Kind Jason.. so Jesus Said..

“Be as innocent as a DOVE” Yes I’ve did that..

BUT

“Be as SHREWD as a SNAKE”  No i’ve not done that. and YES! this time i’m going to make sure the original Disc is going to be kept safely in my house tuck under my room only for my viewing pleasure and whoever come to my house.

as for borrowing to friend.. i’ll think of a different alternative which best not to show it to the public

No I’m not doing illegal stuff :D.

anyway… after which we went to BK where Jason suppose to do Follow up on Chun Kwee..

Initially I wanted to help out. But I realized Jason, Michael and me if all talk together. It will become messy. So I’ve decided to let the 2 leaders to do it. Even though yesterday Jason ask me to help out.

Anyway..  all they did is to explain to Chun Kwee “How to use the bible” and “What do to with the bible”

And yep.. after that we left Burger King.

I’m dumb-founded.

That’s what follow up is all about?

At that instant.. I quite sianz liaoz..

but nvm..next destination… go to Joycelyn’s place lol

as we happily stroll to the station fighting PSP with Thomas still. We bid farewell to Cherine. Which was pretty unexpected too LoL But She’s too tired lah, because of all the dancing just now

so 1 person less ler..Then Michael bid farewell at City Hall.

Another person less ler..

I dont know what reason. Chun Kwee bid farewell at Lavender

And one more person less again.

Finally it comes down to just the 4 of us..

As we were walking over with my stomach grumbling loudly.. Jason said.. it’s a potluck so need to get some food.

that was unexpected. but nvm buy lor.

Actually I quite hate pot luck one.. because for my experience.. it usually means eat what you bought.

I remember last time I bought $5 of Chai Tao kway.. In the end.. only I eating.. haiz..

so due to experience, I dont like pot luck.

But nevertheless, just buy lah.. see how later.

As we were walking there, I found my eyes seems to try to meet the lids of each eyes.  I was like literally nodding off already..

then Jason got lost haha

he made a phone call and got enlightened.

then we made our way there.

The moment we reach there. Joycelyn and Wanqi was like literally staring at us..

“Wooooooow.. I didn’t know..”

Jason Said. “Nel Said the more the merrier”

But I heard Wanqi ask Joycelyn.. “Can or not. Will dio scolding mah?”

Then Joycelyn slowly open the door.

It was at that point, I lost it totally already..

I told Jason, I think it’s not good for me to go after all. But without really waiting for a reply or say good bye to Heng Yu and Thomas, I walk down the stairs and left.

Like I said.. I dont like to be uninvited guest. you will just feel like an outsiders..

Ignoring all phone calls as I made my way to the open road. Jason wearing slippers chase me down all the way.

I told him I’m tired that’s why.. but deep in my heart.. i know that is not the real reason.

As I reflect upon my action.. I know leaving when we finally reached is not the collest thing to do and the best solution to this problem. But I think my fatique took over me. Causing me to lose my patience.

Too tired I guess.. 

Just FYI, I watch show at crunchyroll until I fall asleep and only woke up like 10 mins ago before starting to blog?

I feel bad.. leaving Heng Yu and Thomas there.. I was actually so looking forward to it.. to hear Jason play the carol again later.. and to chat more.. But.. I dont know why.. the moment I think that I’m like an outsiders.. I just dont feel like going..

It’s me. Yes i know.

The problem lies with me and no one.

Joycelyn probbly doesn’t really mind us go.

Since when Hope people will mind openly?

But do they actuallly mind in their heart?

I will just feel.. uneasy..

Sorry guys… I dont know what come over me.. but since it has already happen.. I will not deny the existence of my fault.

I have no excuse for this unholy and UN Jason way of doing thing. But I guess this is one area I need to work on it myself to overcome it.

and I’ve probably disappoint many people. But sorry. Jason is Still Jason. A HUMAN

HUMAN errs! so yes! I ERRS! But one thing about it it I WILL CHANGE! SLowly.. but steady..

Ok peace out. Good Night

looking forward to that day..