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Read Elise’s Blog and saw this. It pierce my heart. What about yours?

“NO DECEPTION IS MORE DANGEROUS THAN SELF-DECEPTION”Sometimes just pondering over life could be an interesting topic but I’m not opening it for any discussion or debate. Just want to pen down what I think at times. This entry could become quite random and in fact my entry could become more and more random and my thought is becoming random, so is my blog.

Today read a website articles that teaches me how to make use of my right mind which is the creativity mind that i’m lacking of YET important in the aspect of life. The website said this world condemn left-handed which is right brain people however I beg to differ as I feel the world is changing and creativity is definitely the IN thing now. You have skills but no creativity, you confirm lose.

Coming back to topic, In life journey, there are always cross junction that could change your life forever. I believe I have been through two to three of those and I believe I just came to another one.
Today Wednesday already like fainting liaoz. What should I do at this cross point? I’m still deciding LoL IN fact, I’m scared beyond deciding actually.. because I know what path have I already taken and what i have not and the thought of not making the path is scary.. yet inevitable.. but if I walk another path.. I know I will regret it.

This Path seems to be very similar to some path that I walk last time.. But this time it seems to be for real! Omg! I dont know how to deal with this already actually.. I just have to keep praying..

WWJD..

“It’s just a few hours and I’m dieing..”

Want to know why u r working so hard?

On the very first day of the world, God created the cow. He said to the cow: “Ah Gu (cow), today I have created you! Your job is to go to the field with the farmer all day long.You will provide the energy to pull things! You will also provide milk for people to drink! You are to work all day under the sun! In return, you will only eat grass. For that, you will have a life span of 50 years.” Ah Gu objected. “What.. I work all day in the sun and I get only to eat grass! On top of that, I have to give my milk away! This is tough and you want me to live 50 years! I’ll take 20 and you can have the remaining 30 years back!” God agreed.

On the next day, God created the dog. He said to the dog. “Ah Kow (dog), I have created you for a purpose… You are to sit all day by the door of your master’s house! Should anyone come in, you are to bark at them! In return, you will eat your master’s leftovers. I’ll give you a life span of 20 years.” Ah Kow objected. ” What! I have to sit by the door all day and will need to bark at people, and what do I get…LEFTOVERS… This isn’t right, I’ll take 10 and you can have the remaining 10 years back!” God agreed again.

On the third day, God created the monkey. He said to the monkey. “Lao Kao (monkey), your job is to entertain people. You will make them laugh, act stupid and make faces! You will also do somersaults and swing on trees to amaze them. In return, you will get to eat bananas and peanuts. For that, I’ll give you 20 years to live.” Naturally the monkey objected. “This is ridiculous, I gotta make faces and make people laugh let not evencome to the part about the trees and somersaults. Tell you what, I’ll give 10 years of my life to thank you for my existenceand I’ll take 10. What do you think?” God agreed again.

On the fourth day, God created humans. God said to the man. “You are my best piece of work, for that, you will only need to sleep, eat, sleep, play, eat, sleep again and do nothing else.You will get to eat all the best things and play with the best toys. All you need to do is enjoy all your life. For this kinda of life, I’ll give you 20 years.” Just like the rest, the man objected. “What, all I need to do is relax and enjoy myself and I have only 20 years to live? Tell you what, you’ve 30 years back from Ah Gu, 10 years from Ah Kow and another 10 from Lao Kao and you probably don’t know what to do with all those lifes. Why not I take them all and I’ll have 70 years to live?”

God being such good natured, agreed with a smile……. AND THAT IS WHY….. We eat, sleep, play and enjoy for the first 20 years of our lives when we are growing up. Work like a cow for the next 30 to raise our family. Sit outside the door and bark at people for the next 10 when we are retired. And finally, we make faces and perform monkey tricks to entertain our grandchildren for the final 10 years.

Dont know lah. It just has to happen at the worst time of my day. Where i’m in the most unstable mood of all.
Being an emotional person. It’s really hard to make decisions. I believe everyone is being tested by God to the max this year. For some, HE really stretch. MY problem isn’t big. But still it’s hard to make a decision.

I might have make a few wrong decisions. But I guess that cant be helped as the situation then prevent me from able to do anything. Every time when I make a decisions. I considered alot. Thinking of possibilites. But I guess My decision went flaw when I thought I understood my friend.. and made some decision.
Most disappointing thing is the respond I had. Did not expected that. I thought…. ah..

nvm. Will see how on Friday. I doubt we would be talking for a while now.

WWJD

Then I go and spoil it all and…..

Will it come to that? Will see…

baah.. got lazy. So decided to delete my composition and write a short one instead.

RP is in top 10 at round 3, round 4 become top 5 and round 5 become bottom 5 LoL.

Why? Last round is a betting round. We suppose to place our bet in how many points we want to gamble.

I dont gamble. I personally hate gamble. If that is a real competition, I will think it’s very stupid to have such event. But they did disclaim that this competition is organized for everyone to have fun. So no argument there.

Despite losing, I’ve really learnt alot regarding about Windows Vista.

Do you know how many months did Microsoft takes to create the start up sound?

Answer: 18 Months.

Zax later told me it also takes 20 sound engineers and 10 software to create the 4 notes.

How rich is Microsoft? Go figure

The art of spending money.. only Microsoft could afford that.. maybe Google and Apple could too..

Seriously man.. LoL

Anyway, Today also mark the last day of meeting up with Joycelyn and Jolene to do their FYP.

End of a short journey.. beginning of another 3..

It has been an interesting one.. Enjoyed the time teaching them, chatting with them. And I think I told them things that Windez dont even know

Sometimes abit pek cek teaching them haha But I understand how hard it is to understand programming.. I did my best. Thank God they are beginning to understand slowly. How many days have we stayed in RP RPC until they close? How many times have I took the last bus home instead of a train? How many times did I miss my bus at Eunos and have to take a cab home? LoL Quite a costly journey this time.. How many times have they came over to my place to do until very late and how many times have we do it at Doby Exchange? LoL I cant count ler

But it’s really been fun sharing life stories and guiding you girls on the project.

It’s really been nice meeting you Joycelyn. And all the best for your future projects!

Your journey with me ends here. :D 

Time to sleep good night lol

hahaha I going crazy liaoz LoL. Boring boring boring~ Recently I really dont know what is it that I really want. Things are beginning to pile up on me and my emotions are getting weirder every day. LoL I do things for fun and I dont know what’s going on lol. This post is for me to destress. Thinking through again in the things that is happening around me now. I dont know what should I do already. Kinda lost. I might know why am I lost. But could it be that i’m holding so tightly to it and refuse to see a different solution that has been placed before me? Is this what people call getting blind living or falling down on the floor in a conscious state?

What should my approach now be? It seems to be here yet not here. I dont know if it’s here. But feel that it’s here. Very Weird. love to do a few things. But I cant do it. Love to chat with someone. But i cant. Sometimes just feel like doing something for the kick of doing it then see which side does the ball fly before trying something interesting. So far been quite entertaining. However, Satisfaction level is not there. Must do more! haha

today received an SMS> Really dont know how to reply. I think I just wait till tomorrow and see how. Bye

haha As I promised someone I would update within the week, I know i’m late! But it’s just one day late. Dont beat me around the head haha

Hello fellas! It’s been a long time since i last post here. Sorry ah, been really really really busy lor. I was helping with one of my dear sister with her FYP project because I cant believe that such a team mates like her’s actually existed in the Christian World. I wonder if he does his QT daily But ah very jia lat haha I think I actually screwed up for her more then I Help her. ASP.NET is something that I’m alien to.Very alien too actually. But because of her, I struggled to learn the language. Slowly, I’m beginning to understand. Unfortunately, not knowing concept without the proper coding is not enough. Thus I more or less failed helping Sharon. I feel quite bad about it. I sure hope that stupid guy would help her..
Anyway, At this moment, I’m also helping Jolene and Joycelyn with her FYP. I face many opposition from my parent initially. Actually, I’m more stunt then surprised to know that my parent actually felt lonely at times.

My mum once told me, “Tell the girls dont come at this hour, need to eat dinner.” “In the end i have to go out and eat alone” I was kinda shock that day when I was having my break fast before going to school. All the way to school, without ear piece to listen to music because someone lend it from me :X These few prominent sentence keep running through my head. I prayed.. I asked for answer. I’ve received. But I doubted. aww!!! Why am I so awful? LoL But still I did it. And I made a choice. This choice I do not dare to tell my spiritual mentor. I felt that i know what is he going to tell me. I may be wrong but I do not want to take the risk. Not at this moment anyway. This week is a very busy week for me too anyway.

But after this month, what of next month and next next month? Haiz. i’m stress.. I found out that if my schedule keep going on like this. I dont know if I’m should stay in DMM.. Stressful period..

I wont talk about my next month and next next month schedule in here. But I’m really stress..

Plus, I think God is giving me sign of a new changes that I could face many opposition again. I need to keep praying regarding about this. I’m not sure yet. Is the time now? I think many people going to be very disappointed in me. But deep in me, I believe I have no choice. Recently, all decisions made are very painful to me. I didn’t want to do it, but i’m put into a situation that I cant reject, neither do I want to accept. Yet unwillingly accepted. What is God trying to tell me here?

Can I solve problem like Joycelyn and Jolene one? That seems easier for me.. Ah well.. Long entry. Sorry ah. Today quite an emo entry. It’s my life after all. Tomorrow I’ll post something more interesting. Till then. Good Bye

The time has come…..